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Thanks for sharing ❤

Especially when I was high masking without intention, I always analyzed and generally blamed myself. Now, I am intending to be truly who I am... nothing to apologize for in other words... and let people who think I need to adjust myself to their expectations fall away.

Im a high masking autistic and right now im working an internship with a care facility for high needs autistic people as an experience consultant, i get to use everything i learned in my life as an mentally ill person to help others with the same problems as me, and ive never felt more accepted by my coworkers. I finally get to be myself and i dont have to mask. This is the longest job ive been able to work because it is very fulfilling and it doesnt drain me because im allowed to be myself. It is a fairly new job, but it is kind of like a sponsor for AA but for every kind of trauma, mental illnesses and whatever you have been through in your life. Its pretty damn cool

Well done. Thank you 🥰

This is too real. Thank you for talking about this. There are times when I would spontaneously spiral about moments in admissions and job interviews from over ten years ago, it's hard to keep myself from thinking, "wow, it's so obvious; why would you have said that? Why didn't you say something else?" And then subsequently freaking about impending conversations I'll have of the same type, where I'm in a lower position of power from the other person, just worrying and planning not to make the same "mistakes." Constantly trying to balance between making the right points, being genuine, but also being too forceful, showing myself too much, and so on. I thought I was an antisocial person for a long time, but I was just tired from "bad" interactions. They probably weren't even bad, even if only I may have been uncomfortable, and yet I couldn't help but fixate.

Sexual things unfortunately.

Do neurotypical people not go through this process of analyzing their conversations? I always think I'm expressive & then I see a video of myself and ...yeah, not so much. I have to try also to remember to smile and vary my tone.

Thank you for sharing your story. I totally relate. I discovered my autism at 75 years of age. I have made many, many social faux pas throughout my life. I love your channel!

Nice video, but as soon as an interviewer hears me speak, their minds already made up, and they know they’re not calling me back, unless it’s something stressful asf like washing dishes. Been homeless multiple times. Currently living in a run down trailer full of dog shit, and roaches… my roommate’s are all methheads 😭. I don’t do it, I only smoke weed, just to cope with this Asperger’s bullshit 😭. I’m constantly getting the second hand smoke from meth tho, I try to stay in my room as much as possible, but it just makes the roommates look at me weird. I only get 626 in ssi, and they won’t let me get an increase unless I’m already paying rent, which is dumb because you have to have at least 1200$ for a down payment in sc, and you’ll be paying at least 750-1500 a month 😭 I’m 22 and feel like I’m gonna be stuck here forever 😭 the toilets don’t work, and the only toilet in the house is filled with shit. The showers don’t work, and neither does the washing machine. The roommate that fixes everything keeps procrastinating so idk when it’ll be fixed… Update: literally 5 mins after I typed this message, the cops knock on the door 😭

T-Rex arms! Ohhhhhh!!!!! Thank you!😮

Thank you for sharing this raw beautiful authentic gutfelt experience. Blessings to you! You are so inspiring young lady. I’ve just TURNED 60 and am getting diagnosed. Thank you for the hope. Thank you for the honesty. ❤

It feels like we are criticising ourselves, but we are not. Our true, authentic self would never do anything so unkind. No, that internal critical voice is not us; it's the conditioned mind or Ego. Realising that we are not the voice; we are the ones listening to it is the first step in healing and freedom.

My whole family would describe me as a super outgoing child, would promptly talk to everyone. I can’t remember that. The only think I remember is that ever since I started school, I was being anxious because I had no idea how to talk to people. I did make friends eventually and it got easier to interact with people I often interacted with, but every new group and environment would throw me into a loop. I think I did straight up copy behaviors I saw in others, but only when I was really little. There is an expression where I’m from that’s basically ‘Mary follows others’ which means someone that is easily influenced by others opinions or copied certain things. No one called me that but every time that was mentioned I’d get worried that someone would find out how much I tried to subtly copy people’s behaviors depending of which group I was interacting with. I just felt like my own self was not appropriate and people wouldn’t like me if I were more genuine, I worried my whole life that my friends didn’t actually like me and in friend groups I felt like I was no one’s first option. I got bullied as a child for being a crybaby and, amazingly, being too childish. Apparently even as a 10 yo I was too childish for the average kid. As I grew, I was labeled as shy and introverted, even though I’ve always enjoyed hanging out with people and going to parties (all of which left me absolutely drained afterwards). Now as an adult, most of my friends are online. Work colleagues asked ‘why are you so quiet?’ And I wouldn’t reply but I always think ‘well you’re just not talking about subjects I can contribute to’. While all the other women are talking about make up, clothes, men and whatever tf, I’m just sitting there playing a mobile game that I was obsessing with at the time and played at every free moment I had. Nowadays I work from home and it really can get lonely. Tbh it’s being very hard for me to analyze how much I have sensory issues. I feel like the majority of my breakdowns (which are very rare nowadays) are due to emotional reasons. Being in a crowd can contribute and being tired and upset can make a loud ambient feel absolutely suffocating (I do tend to leave loud rooms if I can but it’s not because I was completely overwhelmed, just a little bit). I don’t think these things affect me that much on a regular basis, or maybe they do affect and just not as much? I do often have headaches and nausea. As much as I love taking a walk outside, it can be draining and depending on the day I can feel sick even within the hour, but I’m just so used to this, it never felt completely debilitating (aside from me taking naps through the day often because I don’t feel too well). I’m also in a constant state of tired no matter what (sleep issues do contribute but I’m tired even when I can sleep) but I can just push through and work and do other things in spite of that. I hear about autistics’ experiences with sensory overload and I feel like I can’t relate to that 90% of the time, but I’m having a hard time gauging just how bad it actually is for me. Like, I don’t feel great, sure, but it’s not disrupting my life the majority of the time.

I wish you were available in the area where I live so that I could converse/convey to you how much you spoke all the feelings I have had all my life. I thank God for your video popping up for me!! THANK YOU!!!

I went to college for a career I severely hated. I had to mask in my job so much. It gave me anxiety and depression. 😢. I found out that my love of teaching came out from when I was a kid. Went back to school to finish my degree in education and I can never look back. I teach first grade and I can be authentic fun and quirky self. 😁. I really think another great place for autistic or adhd ppl can be in teaching. 😁

Body scanning/ meditating might be really good to grow the body mind connection and reduce the disconnect a bit better 💙

Why does this woman think she should override the clinical definitions - that her interpretation should be considered more valid than the actual dsm which is not perfect but it is the agreed measure for the condition. As in diabetes 1 and diabetes 2 are still both diabetes. It’s about the structure of the system not about the severity of the impacts to the individual. Because the severity of the disability experience fluctuates depending on a number of factors including age comorbidities situation supports (or the absence of attacks and extra or systemic or situational obstacles. Her way of speaking- steeped in electing herself as the arbiter of the situation and claiming dominance over others’ experience by saying “You are just…” . This is a recognized form of interpersonal violence. She is being violent and that is why I just can’t listen to her - she is not God and she is not me and she has zero right to speak for anyone elses experience including her daughter’s. I have no patience with this level of nonsense. If you aren’t my dr. You are not authorized to comment on my neurological situatuon- she’s assuming the authority to diagnose others whom she is not part of theyr experience or trained or granted authority by me to diagnose me. It feels threatening because she is basically lobbying for means testing to exclude many people on the spectrum and block their ability to understand their predicament and address it. I thought I was supposed to center and cultivate stillness. The stillness comes naturally when I allow myself to move my body (stim) to discharge energy and activate my brain in a way that is helpful to my intrinsic experience of calmness. I would not have this information or access to a very helpful tool wo the understanding that I am on the spectrum. Why would anyone want to rob me of that? I think she is psychotically focused on privileging her child over others. It’s insulting to listen to her because of her dirty “you statements” language. Hard to have compassion or take anything she says seriously and thank you for a clear eyed view of what she is saying. I couldn’t get past her god complex to hear her at all. My human ick factor goes off the charts when people start making “you” statements.

thank you <3 i think it's important to note that it matters exactly who it is that's trying to help us . my partner's presence and touch is the most soothing, most blissful feeling there can be . but if im sutting down in anyone else's presence, i need them to just leave me alone . if they try to touch me i'll scream . that includes my parents .

Tze technique part starts at 12:00 if anyone else was wondering 😅

So good!! Thank you 🌸 I wish I had someone in my life like you sooner too 💝

Just a heads up, it does hurt getting it taken out. Anytime you cramp with endo, it’s a rough ride. It’s faster, it’s more bearable but you’ll be achey for a few days. A bit flare like.

Multi-functional or transforming furniture is something worth considering too. For example, a coffee table that turns into a dining table.

This is so helpful, thank you!

I am actually not scared of getting the diagnosis, I am scared of NOT getting XD

I've never been diagnosed with autism personally (kinda feel like there may be a hint of something not being normal though), but the way you described getting home from work and just not having the energy to do anything afterwards hits hard. I struggle a lot with communicating with certain coworkers, I always feel like I'm doing something wrong if i interect with them. The work itself just isn't something I enjoy all that much either. By the time I get home I have literally no energy left over to do anything

Thank you very much for your very informative program. It has really helped me to deal with a lot of issues.

I tried vyvanse and it made my autism symptoms (especially sensory issues) so much worse that I had to stop. The worst part was the one hour wait before it kicked in which would always trigger my PDA. But even though I took it for only a few months, it helped me build some great habits and helped a lot with my self esteem and trusting my own abilities. It was a nightmare but I don't regret taking it at all.

Thanks!

I use immediate release methylphenidate, 20mg in the morning and 10 after lunch. I tried an extended release version, but I HATED how the second dose would just kick in without warning. I felt like my body was being hijacked. I like to know that I put the pill in my mouth and 45 minutes later I will have the effect.

that’s how i always pronounced vehemently too lol

Suuper insightful video Irene. I would love to hear your story or the relations between food relationships and ADHD. It's really a great think to hear that you've been healing from your eating disorder. Here's hoping I can heal from mine soon. This was very inspiring.<3

Wowwww I relate so much!

Whether we are trying to be funny or not, generally neurotypicals don't understand what we mean, so they fill in the blankets and in their minds they changed what we've said into something that makes more sense to them. Then we are either accused of saying something we didn't, or they misrepresent us and call others to mock us

Hi there, old lady here! Please feel so lucky and fortunate that you've figured this out so young. You have your whole life ahead of you and so much joy waiting for you. <3

I suspect that I have autism and that it went undiagnosed due to language barriers. I was raised by Deaf parents. I had a speech delay until age eight. I dont experience anger very often. I hear and feel electricty. In addition to struggle with insomina and anxiety for 10+ years.

I remember when I thought I had 2 close friends in middle school. Turned out they actually they didn’t like me!! Girl they did the most behind my back. It took me so long to realize it too. I really thought we were besties. It just put this huge burden on my future friendships going forward.

Panic attacks over work always.

I'm "high functioning" autistic with ADHD. Seems the only kind of jobs I can even find are retail...I refuse to work in food/serving...even though my real passion is creating character designs and drawing/video games. I work 4 days a week (though my parents are trying to force me to do 5, just for the money)....get told I'm "not doing enough" and get called "lazy", "antisocial" and a jillion of other negative things by my own family all the time. The job I work is extremely fast paced, way too many people and very demanding on my anxiety. By the time I get home I barely have any time, or energy, to actually do my personal hobbies...which my parents have said many times....are a "waste of time" due to them "not making me money." I'm currently trying to at least learn programming (Unreal Engine) to get into game development...but even then, I feel like if I even give it a shot, I'll still be in the same boat I'm always in...doomed to be stuck in a perpetual loop of low paying job, being called awful things, even though I'm really trying my best. Heck, I could spend a year or two making my game and it could flop...would anything really change then? Wish I could work in a less "demanding" environment like a library or a game/comic/bookstore....that would be lovely....even though the pay may just be worse. :(

I have autism and I'm and RBT

I know im late to the party. I feel this video and topic to my core. Ive told my friend who I work with is Autistic that i wanted to get tested for Autism. I explained to her about when i first started working retail i had no idea how to interact with people and started copying coworkers who had been there a while. She explained to me that she wasnt able to do that. I was surprised because i thought it was something almost all high functioning Autistic people could do. Shes always had trouble with how people perceived her at work thinking she was rude but i knew that shes not. I was always confused why she couldn't just mask the same way i do. I felt bad for not understanding her

I would have asked for aftercare instructions. They are supposed to give you those

when i try to do a task that could take me 30 minutes it turns into 4 hours because i need to try my best to force myself to create thoughts about the task im doing that needs thoughts (writing analysis, research) but tasks that need little thinking like dishes i only think of doing them when i am bored with everything else and im doing nothing anyway but then also i can consider doing it but my body is like nah actually you wont do it and automatifwlly im already somehere far away from dishes so its too much mental energy to go back because i need to make consious decisions about the tasks i do and its exhausting